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Was suppose to sleep hours ago...
But my mp3 player was playing Dj Tiesto which kept me awake...
I was day dreaming for awhile...
Then somehow the song list started to slow down...
Then here i am staring at the pc for 2 hours...thinking...emoing...
Thinking bout my future...my studies..my life...my financial side...which somewhat seems bleak...
I donno what i want...i donno what i want for my studies...i donno what frens i wan...i donno what i looking for in a relationship...i donno how to deal with my financial problem...i donno how to take care of myself...i donno how to dealt with my family problem...i donno anything...
The next thing i knoe i felt emptiness...
Emptiness which i can't explain...which i has been puzzled for 2 hours without an answer..
Emptiness which i haven't feel for a long time...or rather i never felt before...
Emptiness which makes me pray...
But it not something i fear of...
A weird feeling...
Maybe i need attention...maybe i need to be left alone...i donno...maybe i just need rest...
6am 19 may 2007
spoke at : 5:22 AM