There are things I can't tell you I love you too much to say I stand undressed But I'm not naked You look at me and who I am
Refrain 2: Understand that it is hard to tell you That I've given all I have to give And I can understand your feelings But then everybody has a life to live
Refrain: Once in a lifetime You have seen what I've seen You will always swim for shore Once in my lifetime I'll never be in between Some things you just can't ignore
Now reach out You can touch me I'll let you have my life to share Years, the days And the minutes Yeh time has such a puzzling grace
Refrain 2
Refrain
I just need to have your love I just can't say no It's a gift from way above I just can't say no It's the one big difference If there's one thing I can have
Refrain
lyrics taken from http://www.texasindemand.com/lyrics_lifetime.html
Ok accounts assignment due next week and a law tutorial exam next week too... And here i am feeling lazy, sloppy and sleepy.. Guess i still in the holiday mood... Days pass and i feeling lonely...still in dreamy land wonder when will i find my other half.. ANyway life goes on and i got great frens around me... Now something jus struck my mind... Who is actually reading this blog?? Other then my frens..em... Oh well i jus keep on thinking bout that and maybe i feel bored then i go read my acc assignment thingy..
It seems i hav been hanging out a lot with my frens..well at least i don't feel so bored.. Great bunch of people.. ANyway yesterday woke up go to college suppose to do acc assignment but din went well.. So ended up relaxing in college till 4.30 when the rain stop got back rest a while then 7.30 Milky Boy and Vee pick me up and off to dinner where we are join by Je and Mel.. After dinner when for a drive Taipan... Then went to Salmon Steak to meet up with te whole group.. Then when on to Rack for a short game of pool.. Well thts the end of another day...
Yeah i finally got connection...yipeeeeee.. Anyway lets start with friday.. Friday there was an econ test.. I guess i did ok for tht then after the test i went dota with TK and frens... So tht was friday... The next day once agian met TK for dota this time with Jason, Derek,KK, Jason Gf and Derek Gf...and another guy which i cant remember his name.. Then in the evening i went to Mel with our normal bunch of college frens church dinner in conjunction with the mooncake fest..the food was nice specially the pork... then it was football session...
Sunday felt bored so went The Curve to chill aolone...hehe somehow today bus ride was free.. The food there was freaking ex...cost 19.67 plus tax and stuff...but it was nice.. then when Sunway to get wireless router for RM210... While waiting for bus saw Jason....He ask me to join him and his gf, Marvin another guy and another girl for a yam cha session at the Magicial Cafe... Then i was back excited bout my new gadget..get it set up..and here i am finally unlimited internet connection 24/7 unless something happen to streamx..
Ok another passes-by...Yesterday i had a nice and complete dinner since like a month or so ago... All thx to bunch of great frens...and a very special thx to ADRIAN ur parents ar the best and coolest.. The dinner and the breakfast was perfect.especially the crabs it roxssssss.Thx Adrian thxs a lot.Ur parents are so friendly and humble....hard to find now a days.. Also thx to Marco for bring me all the way up to Klang and Back..
Ok assignment due today..yap my powerpoint and website due today... And glad thts its over...Now since i knoe how front page works it not tht hard but it takes lots of try out and mistake and retry.. But its over..Not sure when i use it again..but i dont think any time soon..
Also today i got my acc result back.. How i did? Slightly below average..so i between emo and normal... emo coz i knoe i could do better but i ok with it coz i pass..means i hav to try even harder for finals.. Stress and preassure..oh its killing me..i don even wan to talk or think about my law...
Oh ya yesterday was also a sad day for Man U fans..lets us have a minute of silence for tht...... Man U jus lost their 1st game of the season (and hopefully last)..to.....their arch enemy the Gunners..freaking sad..
Yap ir seem eventful day which was...i enjoyed it.. it took my mind of my troubles and stress for a while.. Hate to admit it i still think and misses her... But time still pass and life still goes on...
ps: stupid mp3 player playing all the emo song making me more emo..
Finally i finished my assignment... Yap done my powerpoint and me web site and i proud of it... :) Ya still remembered a week ago i was there stressing after my break up...and a week later its done..after like around 12 hours of hardwork on my frontpage...its tiring man...do this somemore i my need specs...staring at the pc for 6 to 7 hrs straight...but i must admit it was kinda fun learning new things My first ever website..Wei ;)
Oh ya i took 4 mooncakes in a week...yum yum it was nice i must admit..the soft snow skin mooncake for Tai Thong (which i was suppose to share with her, which i got for her)... my fav is the blueberry pineapple snow skin mooncake...reminds me of new year pineapple tarts..next will be the Tiramisu taste like eating tiramisu cake...next for got the name it the normal lotus mooncake with black sesame...not too sweet andthe black sesame goes well..yum yum..lastly is the cheese something...tht jus taste like eating cheese.. And after eating so many mooncake from Baker's Cottage and Tai Thong i must say Tai Thong mooncake taste better...
Ok next how am i doing? I ok i guezz still a little emo..Its funny how she seems so foreign to me now... Guezz i still slowly moving on..but i still can't help missing her and loving her.. But somethings juz arent meant to be...
When ur moody or sad thing goes wrong.. Like yesterday was my law exam... It was suppose to be easy but i hav to pcik the hardest exam question.. Out of 4,5 or more question papers i hav to choose the hardest 1.. No need to say i doubt i did well for that test..I screwed... anyway today i passed up my econs eassay and finished my powerpoint(expect the reference) Also started my front page.. And front page is freaking confusing to use and i got like 9 pages to go and its due monday...so its stress stress stress for the next few days...after thts done i got my acc and my IST assignment 2..it never ends..sigh..
12/9/2006 8.35pm Movin on with my life.. Its weird how u used to talk to someone so much and now u dont even talk ..it kinda funny how life can change so fast..
Anyway movin on ahead yesterday finally finished my econs essay with the rest of the group.. Juz feel tht the stress level went down when i finished it.. But my IST assignment is going no where and 2morrow i got the freaking law test at 6pm yap u heard it right 6pm..juz glad its all mcq..
would like to crap more but need to study so see ya peeps
The songs is dedicate to tht some1 special ..if she ever get it...
To the rest enjoy
spoke at : 7:10 PM
Papa Roach - Scars
chorus: I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut My weakness is that I care too much My scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain And I can't help to fix myself Your making me insane All I can say is
chorus
I tried to help you once A kiss will only vise I saw you going down But you never realized That your drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassions in my nature Tonight is our last dance
chorus
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone You shouldn't ever came around Why don't you just go home? Cause your drowning in the water And I tried to grab your hand And I left my heart open But you didn't understand But you didn't understand You fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
chorus x2
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Perfect
PERFECT Hey dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according to the plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think About the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't stand another fight And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said Nothing's gonna make this right again Please don't turn your back I can't believe it's hard Just to talk to you But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Taken from http://simpleplanonline.com/band/lyrics/12.php
Ya guess u all know bout my break up.. So today is my first day being single again..yap not the first time i broke up with her.. I donno..i feel crappy ness... Cant find the old me... With assignment untouch..i really not in a good shape... Ya i know some of you guys may said it juz a break up i got much worse problem then u.. But it meant a lot to me..somehow it meant my future.. but still got my frens...who is trying realli hard to make me feel better..thxs...i be ok juz need time.. Here are some of words of comfort from my bunch of frens 'everything happened for a reason" "Finally you got over it" "Jus be happy nothing else u can do" "We are always here to help,thats what frens ar for"
Oh well of to another topic..today got my acc test..ya all mcq.. how i did?i really dont knoe...coz i knoe half here, half there and every question got 1 answer saying none of the above which makes thing so much harder.. SO there goes another emo day.. Guezz 2morrow i be better..i guezz...
Jus found out how nice McD's chicken Mc foldover is...coz its my first meal in like 24 hrs??
Guess i jus be stoning and sleeping for the rest of my day.. think and emoing my life away..
I wish i could with problems and negative thinking in my head... I donno wat to do now.. I wan to be carefree!! Test,assignments and problems... All i want to be is like normal college students why cant i be 1!!! Ya i stress out..with all this S***... When will it end?? Seems like alone.... Life S*** I hate growing up it bring pain and worries.. I would really like to go back to the innocent stage during my primary years where life looks so simple and carefree... I wan to run away..
6/09/2006 8.38pm Ok Marco said my font is too small.. hope this works.. anyway another day passes and somehow i still emo.. lots if things still in my mind... Not mention friday theres my law thingy and acc test..which both i knoe nothing of... Then econs eassy due next week..and my havent been much going on with my ist assignments.. Ah life...don u at times love to hate it.. There ar stuff which i wish i could blog..but to avoid hassle i shall not blog about it.. put in this way i reaching a cross-road and i have been think a lot about which path to take.. But for now i guess i jus sit in the middle of the cross road and wait and see what happens..
8.45pm
spoke at : 8:40 PM
Wet Wet Wet - Love is all around
I feel it in my fingers I feel it in my toes Love is all around me And so the feeling grows Its written on the wind Its everywhere I go, oh yes it is So if you really love me Come on and let it show You know I love you, I always will My minds made up by the Way that I feel Theres no beginning, Therell be no end cause on my love you can depend I see your face before me As I lay on my bed I kinda get to thinking Of all the things you said, oh yes I did You gave your promise to me and i Gave mine to you I need someone beside me In everything I do, oh yes I do You know I love you, I always will, My minds made up by the Way that I feel Theres no beginning, Therell be no end cause on my love you can depend Got to keep it moving Oh its written in the wind Oh everywhere I go, yeah, oh well So if you really love me, love me, love me Come on and let it show Come on and let it show Come on and let it Come on and let it (come and let it show, baby) Come on, come on, come on let it show baby Come on and let it show Come on and let it show, baby Come on and let it show
5/9/2006 9.15-m Got up today go class.. It was worth it as i got all the points for my Econs essay.. Tax on tabbaco... The walk all the way to ss14 for chicken rice then i went bak home.. Sleep,sleep, and sleep some more.. Woke up thinking how everyone got assignment started so i did my too.. Now my power point is nearly done only thing missing is references,pictures(its very plain now),logo(the very hard part),organazation structure(no idea how to do),location(still can think of an address).. ya so its like 50% done..for now..and got 2 weeks to do..it shuld be ok.. Well think i betta study..i need it man.. see ya peeps..enjoy the song too..
If you, if you could return Don't let it burn, don't let it fade I'm sure I'm not being rude But it's just your attitude It's tearing me apart It's ruining everything I swore, I swore I would be true And honey so did you So why were you holding her hand Is that the way we stand Were you lying all the time Was it just a game to you
(chorus) But I'm in so deep You know I'm such a fool for you You got me wrapped around your finger Do you have to let it linger Do you have to, do you have to let it linger Oh, I thought the world of you I thought nothing could go wrong But I was wrong, but I was wrong
If you, if you could get by Trying not to lie Things wouldn't be so confused And I wouldn't feel so used But you always really knew I just wanna be with you
WORDS BY D. O'RIORDAN. MUSIC BY D. O'RIORDAN / N. HOGAN taken from http://cranberriesfans.com/lyrics/eeidiswcw/linger.htm
Dreams by The Cranberries
Oh my life Is changing everyday In every possible way
And Oh my dreams It's never quite as it seems Never quite as it seems
I know I've felt like this before But now I'm feeling it even more Because it came from you
And then I open up and see The person falling here is me A different way to be La
I want more (impossible to ignore) I want more (impossible to ignore)
And they'll come true (impossible not to do) And they'll come true (impossible not to do)
And now I'll tell you openly You have my heart so don't hurt me You're what I couldn't find
A totally amazing mind So understanding and so kind You're everything to me
WORDS BY D. O'RIORDAN. MUSIC BY D. O'RIORDAN / N. HOGA From http://cranberriesfans.com/lyrics/eeidiswcw/dreams.htm
4/9/2006 10.05pm so wat i been up to lately?? Week end juz zoom pass me.. And yet i havent started my assignment..but i got guide from seniors...so thx ya all for the help.. Anyway basicly last few days have been stoning/emoing in my room and watching DVD's which i borrowed from ym housemate.. Amazing how much i watched this weekend as i don really like watching movies.. I watch..Click,Kiss Kiss BAng Bang, Break-Up, Hostel(This movie is gross and 18sx),some chinese movie which i can't rememebr the name..so thts pretty much it 5 movies in 2 days... While rest of the time was spent in FTZ while doing my normal stuff,gaming.... So pretty much thts it..friday there will be test for acc..so i betta go srudy.. See ya peeps...
~ will find you online in midnight, and talk until late
~ he will call you out and play, and tell you to give up homework and to skip class
~ when you are ill, will care about you and say something to comfort
~ he will talk good about you, you will think he is great
~ no matter what it is, he will do things to fit you, so that you will be happy
~ he will say that he will give the best to you
~ he will help you buy "mid-meal", deliver it, and drive you to school and back
~ he only thinks about now
If Boyfriend
~ when see you online in midnight, will tell you to offline
~ he will tell you to finish the homework as soon as possible, or want to discuss over homework
~ when you are ill, he will care for you so much until you feel annoying, and force you to go to the doctor
~ all the things he says, are meant to care about you, but usually sounds like commanding, you would think: why he does that?
~ he will help you see right and wrong, but you think he cares/worries too much
~ he can be only sure that when you are with him, he is the happiest person
~ he will help you buy "mid-meal" but he will remind you, eat what is healthier
~ he will drive you to school, but only when it is the same route because he cannot skip class becuz of you becuz if he skip class, his grade will be bad grades are bad, then he wont get a good job then how will his and your life be good, he will think long term
~ he can see the future, how he should work hard and give the best for you
lazy to blog so heres a copy and paste thingy...
spoke at : 2:24 PM
Me!!!
Name: Cody Teo Seng Khai
School: Sunny Hill,Smk Batu Lintang, Inti College Sarawak, Metropolitan College
Birthday: 17/03/1986