I never really had frens when i were in secondary... Somehow i was weird... But it was ok...i had my parents, my game console, then there was my love QKQ 25... Never thought that i need anyone but them.. Never even think about going into a relationship and stuff... But when i came here to KL everything changes..I lost all those.. I got no one to talk to...due maybe guys ego..sometime we hate to talk to our parents coz they can be grumpy at times and my mom treat me like a primary school kid...yeah even now sometimes she still does tht..cant blame her i been very close to her since i was born,yeah and being like a single child its hard...its kinda sad to think tht when ur kids grow up and hav their own life while u are all alone there... Yeah i always felt bad sometimes i mistreat her...but i am in a rebellious stage..so hope i try to control myself...
back to the main topic... When i was in secondary i had problems fitting into my frens plans...they think i was weird... My form 5 was like the saddest school years of my life... But things slowly changes... When i in KL i tried to 'fit in' so slowly i learn to communicate with them..yeah i know sometimes i knoe they still find me 'weird' at times..yeah its glad tht time ur fren call to ask u for lunch,dinner,movie,study session or jus a drive to middle of nowhere..i wish i could be in 2 place at once..as much as i wanna spent time with all my frens here i really need to go back and meet my parent who misses me twice or more as much as my frens do...yeah not forgetting my frens back in Kuc... Other then that i donno why i wanted to go into a relationship badly..maybe at times i jus want some1 close to me (or the feeling i 'old') which is why i wanted to go into a relationship.. I thought thats all i need..but in reality its different from those in the movie.. In a relationship there are much more then just love..a lot of things tht need to be learned and get use to.. Well lately i getting alone fine being single..i guezz i had been trying to hard late..think i just leave it for now,no use trying anywhere since its getting me no where.. ok the rained stop time to do my college stuff Tata guys...
I wished at times i live in a dream world.. Everything seems so nice.. Had a dream dreaming i was driving a weird looking sports car..picking up a girl..in the car we hardly talk..it like a our first date... but before long i was already awake... but to reality.. but to all the problems and boring life of my...
here's the song the to explain everything
Since after my finals i have been in a dreamy state...fair to say i not really myself lately..maybe becoz dreams are always better then reality..
You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.
You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image. You need for those people in positions that matter to recognise your potential and to acknowledge you.
At times all of us would like to be like the ostrich - to be able to bury our heads in the sand and let the rest of the world go by, but unfortunately you can't do just that - you have to face up to reality. A little peace and quiet would be most acceptable at this time but if only one could turn a blind eye to the problems of the day! Tomorrow is another day and who knows, it could be 'today' (not tomorrow) that could be the first day of the rest of your life!
Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
take the test here its damn accurate...its somehow creepy to me
I remember there was a lot going in my mind during the test which i was suppose to post but i couldn't remember.. Suppose about a girl i like...was is 'C', or was 'A' or 'J' or tht 'C' or tht another 'C'..anyway i couldnt remember.. Getting old..sigh wat was it about.. i remember i got lots to blog about i even remember thinking of wat to write on my bed..before sleeping.. Oh well guezz its over so.. Malaysian attitude don't care la.. Man i wish i were in KLCC now..emm...somehow i like city view..maybe i shuld get a penthouse in city in the future..yeah tht would be cool..
The next day woke up at 12 to see miss calls..then i said to myself oh my tht must be one of church auntie who was suppose to pass me my passport..yeah i be going Singapore to meet my mom and my Sis there.hopefully by Saturday
So i called back saying how sorry i was and stuff...then agreed to meet them at Times Square at 3 by then it was around 1..so i rush to shower came back out change and armed with my sling bag and my PSP loaded with mp3's i walk to KTM yeah it freaking hot and it took 20 min to reach there..on the way there saw some tv reporter reporting something near the football field at SS15... Not something big it seems...i was in a hurry so i just went pass them.. Got in to the train and play FIFA 07 all the way to KL Sentral.. Took a monorail then to Times Square...found the auntie with her husband..invited me to lunch but i felt bad so i jus took a drink instead...then we when their separate ways...so i walk around happily taking few shot of interesting things i came along..but then reality struck i can't upload the photo so i ended up deleting them -_-'' So walk walk find it to be boring too many lala's (Ah Beng's and Ah Lian's) which somehow making me feel like them(i need a hair cut). There i was going back to dream world thinking to myself i shuld be wearing Hugo,CK, GA, DKNY(yeah my fav) and stuff.. So there i was dreaming, giving myself a goal in 15 years i be wearing all those (think bout it now i be lucky to do so in 20 years)...if i were to achieve that i would first need to slack less..dreaming wat if my family is rich and stuff...
After going walking and thinking of all those fancy clothes somehow felt like going KLCC....so took the monorail back to KL Sentral then took Putra LRT to KLCC... The crowd were completely diff..lots of foreigners, working class and rich kids there... So walk and walk, till i hungry so go find food..ended up eating Yoshi something something la Japanese fast food thingy...took beef something was hungry so anything goes.. continue walking looking at ppl...thinking of snapping a few pic but then again i cant upload..
walk till i tired so ended up in the park jus outside KLCC somehow when i reach there i felt calm and relax...took a sit at the stair facing the fountain...The sound go the fountain and ppl around snapping photo, kids running around, family being together..a nice place to be with light breeze blowing..armed with my PSP i was there enjoying the music and the place..thinking how cool it will be the next time i will be here with my gf then my wife then kids...yeah once again i was brought to dream world..Looking at the city light emits itself a wonderful feeling...away from stress... Then it was getting late, my PSP was flat and i am tired so i make a move taking Sardine pack Putra LRT all the way to Kelana Jaya and taking the bus to Sunway the took bus mini back home coz i was lazy to walk..Back at home chat with loyal Kennysia readers and met a few fren...and this girl....
After a month of stressing and a week of lack of sleep test is over... How i did? I don't knoe..there is a 50/50 pass fail rate...
Wished i had more time to study..but then again its over...now all i can do is sit back relax and pray real hard..yeah games here i come..
So right after my test its DotA for me and my DotA frens....Even all of us were tired we all are excited and really in to DotA to so call destress.. then came back home sleep ( i really need tat) then 10 its DotA again... Came back home suppose to sleep but i jus took my shower so i said to myself i shall play my FF3 on my DS for a while but end up sleeping at 6 in the morning... Crap college life is unhealthy..but who cares...
Sorry was kinda busy with test..last minute stuff... Ya so can't blog.. actually got quite a lot of stuff in my head i wanna blog..like girls, family, studies,girls, frens, finals, and did i said girls?? Anyway i so stress up tht i cant sleep yet i feel like a zombie..coz of the stress and lack of sleep... I really did some rest hopefully to wake up and study early in the morning.. So when i free i blog a bout this girl i think i like...wait did i say girl i mean car, er handphone, nope it was a cat... Ok u get the point i need sleep..and yes i stress to the max..
Yeah if u all realize in my chatterbox there are some bloggers who hop to my blog..or shuld i said i hopped to their blog...gee..sound like some bunny hopping around now.. Some must be thinking er...shuld u be studying? Ya i need i need rest too k!!! So my search for blog goes.. One after another till i feel bored thts when i go bak to my even more boring books.. Found a few interesting ones...Jus click on their name in the chatterbox and it will link u there... Some plain laid back design some colourfully pinkish theme.. But all nice none the less.. Then something struck me all those nice blog contains picture 0_0 and my...contains green colour aliens.. So why i don put up some pic right?? Er...i wish i could but look i stuck most of the time behind 4 walls...no i not in a prison i mean my room...if not i be at FTZ DoTA away my life... So what is nice to put on my blog?? Other then tat i dont look handsome or anything*blushes*
BUT the main reason is.......*drums rolls*
My Nokia N70 wont connect to my antic laptop...ya really u guezz would have thought i dont have a camera or something right ;) Yeap my laptop is running on Windows ME...which is like so outdated...the software which came with my laptop only support Windows 2000 and above -_- ...there goes for me spending on a 2MP camera phone but i hardly got Virus lurking in my laptop so i guezz is a plus point for running an older windows version..and i dont even have a anti-virus program on this thing :) I do have a 2 year old Sony CyberShot P200 a 7.2MP camera which is with my mom coz she said......Why do u need a camera u not doing design..later stolen how? geezz..She also hardly uses it..wait shuld i said she doesnt really know how to use it..Seriously don buy a camera without steady shot coz most of ur picture will turn out to be blur...Yah that camera doesnt have one so it kinda hard to take pictures especially without the flash...Somehow Sony knew which is why they give a small tripod stand -_-" Enough said...Back to my studies..
Had a dream 2 days ago... A very nice one... In the dream some1 special said sent me a very sweet message... One i never forgot... But that was jus about it...The next thing i know the light from the Sun(somehow i forgot to pull the curtain the night before) was all i see and there i was woken from my dream... I tried sleeping back but it was no use...even if i were to sleep the chances of me going back to the dream i wanted was as low a me getting all HD for my finals... So there i was feeling somewhere between happy and sad... Then all the sudden tear started flowing... Coz i have to face the facts thats Dream and Reality don mix and there is nothing we can do about... And looking at M!lkY b0Y blog i donno what i can say to him or what i can to myself... For now all i can do is hope that 2morrow will be better, hope to find the other half in times to come, hope to get through my finals.... ps: who am i lying my studies aren't going well, i only look good outside, inside its anything but good yes i stress, yes i hardly studied...coz the fact that the more i studied it seems the less i know...at times like this all i can do is kneel down and pray...
Ok lately i have been hibernating in my room studying... Well not actually how i plan to study but due to the rain ya...blame it on the rain which spoilt my plan...lately i hardly go pass 1km away from my room...i would jus eat in one of the shop outside my room or jus stick to the basic instant noodle.. So i have been studying studying and studying...so what i studied?...Good question....I DON"T KNOW... Yeap i not sure what i studied.. But anyway i jus going keep going no time to turn back.. Anyway i kinda force to go to college later in the evening for 2 thing: 1st get a new cable so i can transfer mp3 to my PSP after i formated the memory card 2nd to get the ist text book from the college library Anyway study makes me hungry... looking through the trash i saw... empty 1 litre milk bottle, 1 empty packet from Gardenia wheat bread,3 empty can of soft drinks, 1 empty packet of twiggles, 1 empty bottle of herbal tea,2 packets of maggi noddle and 1 empty cup noddle.... That like 3 or 4 day of thrash...and here i am hungry guezz i going to find food... Shuld i eat Tiger biscuit of the raisin bread?or cup noodle?
Everyone has been talking about finals this and that.. Studies, internal marks, blah blah... And college has gone quiet nowadays with RMIT having finished their finals and Curtin mostly studying at home or else where.. While so am i..i been stoning at home staring at the book and walking around,laying down, stressing over some terms which i don understand or jus getting blurer by the minute due to over load of information.. So what i did while reading was downloading games...Yeap games..at this time..to my DS..Bad idea.. So after study i stare at my silver little machine with 2 screens hold a the stylus and tapping the lower screen like mad and not long after that i found out i pass my bed time... So i trying hard not to get tempt by my ds... i shall timed myself to study then continue my gaming session..jus hopes it works..Fingers cross...
on the other note...weather here is anything but good.. Scorching sun in the afternoon then heavy rain with scary thunderstorm in the evening.. Which makes my dinner time all messed up and having to end up eating what ever food left in my room...Thx God i restock few days ago... Rain rain go away~~ so i can have my dinner... 8.06pm
Ok so saturday is here.. That was fast...which also mean i moving closer to the finals..scary.. Anyway today i took the day of after yesterday whole day study session... Woke up took some food and studied a little then spent the whole evening in my hang out spot FTZ.. After FTZ got the passion to taste some burger so... Walk to a burger stall which we all (me and my frens) named it prawn burger.. Yeap they served prawn burger there..they say was nice but i havent tired it.. So i ta pau a Ayam special and a 4 or 5 piece nugget for 4.5o.. Ya u read it right 4.50 for both the burger and nugget mind u it ayam special(chicken special) And its the best nugget and burger i tasted for quite a while and for the price it worth every penny of it..oh ya the nugget they also included black pepper, chili, and mayo sauce...all that for 2.00..I guess it one of the few cheapest burger stall around but all it matters for me its the best burger stall around Malaysia... Sure Ramly( not sure how u spelt it) burger taste diff from those in MacD or Burger King...but that what makes it soooo much special..Truly Malaysian.... I wish Kuching have more burger stall... Ya i knoe i going to missed it when i go Aussie... So for now i shall treasure it...Yum
Test is 2 weeks away... And my stress level have gone up... Lately i have been studying like mad... It's the first time i spent so much time studying.. But the weird thing is....i don understand what i studying..Especially law... What more is like my first year of uni.. and i got 2 more law to got through...Great... Crap blame all the last minute studies.... Blame my low internal marks...
Still there is hope and time...no choice but to pray and try hard...
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Me!!!
Name: Cody Teo Seng Khai
School: Sunny Hill,Smk Batu Lintang, Inti College Sarawak, Metropolitan College
Birthday: 17/03/1986
